farewell.

After saying goodbye so many times, the thought of farewell still makes me sad and lonely. Because even though people say “we’ll keep in contact”, it’s usually a promise waiting to be broken.

If I’ve learnt anything about working life, it’s that it’s almost impossible to juggle with your social life and more often than not, the relationships with the friends you had, that you no longer see everyday, start to change whether you like it or not.

I like to pretend that everything is still the same but deep down I know it’s not. Which is why I’m dreading the future.

Because the future, be it next week or 4 months from now, leaves me sad and lonely.

The worst feeling is to miss something so much your heart aches. And knowing that you can never have it back just makes things worse. Whoever made the quote “don’t cry cause it’s over, smile cause it happened.” is full of bullshit. Because having once owned something, you’re more affected by the loss of it than you would be had it never been in your possession.

Saying goodbye only hurts when you know you’ll never say hello again. But then again, all sorts of goodbyes hurt when you don’t want to let go at all.